Worry

I have learned in my life that worrying does absolutely nothing. Why worry about things that have not happened? Why stress out about things you have not control over? Nick has taught me that in more than one ways. That doesn't always stop me though...He has tried to show me the other side of the negative and has kept me open minded in every aspect of my life. He once shared with me when I was expressing to him about my anxiety with Anthony's seizures that maybe he has them for a reason. To prevent him from something. Where I always see it as maybe the seizures prevent him from having a normal life. He expressed if he didn't have them maybe he would be able to drive, get into an accident. Or I would be so carefree with him. And that would run him in trouble. I worry about the fact that his father is such an ass. My ex called the other night, and told Ant if he wants to talk to him for Ant to call him. Well, that's a good thing. For us. I think my ex does more bad for him than good. Not only will he not pick up Ant, but a phone call is to much to ask for now. I worry Ant will be so resentful, he will be a monster when he grows up. I can't help it. But, I am learning to take it day by day. I worry that Nick will leave me. I worry that he will look at his life and see all he does for me and Ant and he will miss his own life. He takes every second of his life and puts it in ours. He lives and breathes for us. He was single up until he was 27. And he has a family now. Basically over night. I hope he knows how much we appreciate all he does for us. And how much I love him. He is on bad terms with his family because they have a hard time excepting me. He has chosen us, despite the fact that his mother and sisters are a loss for him in his life. I tend to be childish sometimes and very jealous. He always puts me first. Can I except his friends, though they have proven me wrong? I will soon find out. We have dinner plans with his friend soon. I am worried about it. I don't thing his friend will like me. I know Nick will stand by me. I am worried about a wedding that isn't even happening yet. Nick's sister may be getting engaged. Will we be invited? Will his ex girlfriend? Will we have to go?